The spirit is willing but the body is weak.

Today,I woke up about 5am.My wife was waking me up but i pretend to be sleeping still. For some reason I can't get myself to stand up and do what I promised her the night before I went to bed, (I only have one thing in my mind before I went to bed last night, that was to wake up early the next day and start running again!)I told her I can't do it today. not this time for I tried to go to sleep as early as I can last night but I just couldn't! I think I went to sleep by about 11pm. She didn't try to wake me up again, She knows me more than anybody else, If i Said I will do it! heck! I will! When will I do it? that's the one million dollar question.hehehe

By 6am I looked through the window while still lying in my bed, I saw outside it's still dark.I told myself I have to start running again, I must. I dressed up, I was so excited i forgot to even brush my teeth and comb my hair, I will not be talking to anyone anyways, I said to myself.hehehe.Grabbed my PAIR OF OLD RUNNING SHOES, the only running shoes i have. Grabbed the car key and I drove off to the place i used to rule.the nearest park in front of the village right in front of my small office. Yeah. I used to run, and I said Run! run the whole park for two hours straight.People used to know me as the young guy whom the first to run in the morning and the last to leave the place. old ones will from time to time joke around and say "ganyan ako kalakas tumakbo kay trail nung kabataan ko din". I would give a glance and smile at them as a sign of respect as i pass them by.I was so addicted to running, my ex girlfriend (she's my wife now, that's why she's my ex.-kopimeyt for my coffee, make sense to me.lol) would see my whole body literally smoking. i guess it's because of my body heat plus the coolness of early morning mist.

I parked my car, took a deep breath and got out of the car. some familiar faces.hehehe some recognized me. "Long time no see!" couple of old guys greeted me. "good morning po", I replied. I am kinda shy nobody expecting to see me a hundred pounds heavier!!! lol. Everybody was looking at me.hahaha. I don't mind actually. I am comfortable making fun of myself.I told myself, "You are a heck of a fat guy in jogging shorts, white cotton shirt and a pair of old black running shoes, Heck! everybody will be really looking at you when you start walking,FAT GUY!.hehehe
As I start warming up. I became more convince that I really am a hundred pounds heavier.LOL! after about 5-10mins I decided to give jogging a try! wow! It only took about 100 meters, Then I feel my heart STARTS POUNDING! Woo ow.... while grasping for air, (I think every oxygen in the universe is needed for me to catch my breath).I said to myself, Man! you really have something biiiig to work out. I didn't even try to run, I was afraid it could kill me! lol. for about an hour, I walk and jog, walk and jog. Not that satisfied with today's effort but I knew that's all I can do for now.Tomorrow, I will make it harder, more jogging than walking. I can rule that running park once more. I will.